I Want Him to Go To Bed
I can’t be me when he is awake
I am who he thinks I am and yet
I disappoint him all the time for I
am not who he wants and yet he
tells me I am beautiful and smart
and how cherished I am until I
open my mouth
I want him to go to bed so I can
relax and be me to do whatever I do
as me whatever I am that disturbs
him and disturbs me because of him
I hope he really is in bed asleep
I hope I have the energy to be me
I am so tired now from interaction
with him it is always about him
it is always about how he is right
it is about “Quiet, I was talking!”
I try to interject while not interrupting
but the interjection is seen so and then
I want him to go to bed though I will
have to creep around to be me
I hope you will have some time to be you tonight.....and not creep around to BE you, Willow.
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