In Pursuit

In Pursuit 

In pursuit of my misery

he yells and threatens

bangs on the locked door

I have to open or he will

knock it down, so he says

he accuses me of things

I have not done, didn’t do

the neighbors must hear

I am surprised the police

haven’t come as I have

been close to calling 911

Every night is a nightmare

sundowning, I believe they 

term it and it is horrific after

a lovely dinner when suddenly

Mr. Hyde appears threatening

with bodily harm and I don’t

want to be here even with my

knowledge and compassion

it becomes too hard to care

my neck hurts from fending off

from rigid fear and worry

In the morning there is loving

during the day there is friendship

he says kind words about my care

tells me I am necessary to him

and appreciates that I am here

I tell him I wouldn’t be anywhere

but here to care for him to love him

to help him on this journey we

traverse together one step at a time

the other numerous health issues

the drug trial that will arrest progress 

Evil one that I am, I’m not sure I want

him stuck where he is for it is often

unbearably hard yet how can I say no

for the future without arrest is grim

today is doable for him with quality

it is only hard for me to bare and so

I persevere to keep him whole as I

can with modern science trials that

pursue arrest