My Girl

A Poem

He says I allow it
how she treats me
   but 
it is how he treats me
I might have laughed
    if
it wasn't so painful
how I allowed it
   she
learned what I would take
she plays me to the max
    he 
signs onto saving me
attacking me for how
    she
treats me
I am the dupe

Earth Took Me

Frozen in place 
anguish twists
where on earth to
    go

Flame field startles
shocks all serenity
frozen my feet
    go

Born of flame
permeable fire
feet thaw
    go

Earth took me

Conversation

Conversation

I wish it could have been a conversation

but you sent me an email instead

I can't interject 

I have no reply

I wish it could have been a conversation

where I might become incredulous

where we might have stitched repair

I have no reply

I wish it could have been a conversation

rather than the hateful end

you chose

I have no reply

Surfing

In the Gloaming

In the gloaming

of my life

have I learned 

anything

I feel as lost

as ever

I've learned I

know a lot

that means nothing

in the over all scheme

I am lost but I know it

in the gloaming

Looking for a House

Looking for a House

Is it that I'm trying to run away
the reality into which we're dumped
my reason for trying to find a house
any house but this house

Is it that I want that pretty house
that belies health and happiness
my reason for trying to find a house
any house but this house

It is here the black cloud descended
that hems us into this small life
this horrific chaos and sorrow
in this house with no doors out

If I find a new place to house us
will the black cloud stay behind
infinite joy stream indoors
any house but this house

Bone Woman

Innovative Surmise

I think she liked me more than you
and you couldn't stand it
especially since she loved you supremely

she was a force
all grit and bone
a pork gravy woman

she would tell you a thing or two
and I loved her tellings
curmudgeon woman

I think she saw she had to reject me
it was too late
it was always too late