Tea Garden Bridge

Tea Garden Bridge

The bridge arches steeply like a rainbow

one entrance evident the other obscured

leaves float on the stream beneath in this

fuzzy universe without sound

I See

I See

I see my ancestral 

and futuristic sides

my hands today 

are reptilian 

Stitch

Stitch

Stitch, stitch, stitch it 

all back together again

it only comes unraveled

loops fall in disarray 

colors melt into mud

hope dies to form a pattern

that will get us through the day

everything spills out on the floor

My Heart

My Heart

Stapled 

pink against

white

a Valentine

I don't bleed

I persevere

deny

anemia

No Compassion

No Compassion

Our therapist said,

as she rolled up to him

knee to knee

“You’re a bully.”

My heart stopped.

I thought he would bolt.

Instead he chuckled, said

“I guess you’re on to me.”

I never knew he knew

he was a bully, considers

it a complement, he relishes

 in it.

She rolled up to me, said

“You hired on to teach him.

What you failed to notice,

he wasn’t advertising.”

He is a narcissist.

He has a disease

aligned with narcissism.

It is all about him.

He has a public demeanor

endearing ways, what 

caught me once, so many

years ago.

Tonight he talked to me

of his need for compassion

how difficult this disease is.

I dug down deep, nothing.

I can’t conjure compassion

there’s too much damage.

I perform my duty to him.

I am only the hired help.

The World is Heavy

The World is Heavy

I advise listening
I never watch the news
except to listen to NPR

The World is Heavy
how do we lighten up
we listen to NPR

We listen for sanity
in an insane world
we listen for hope

The World is Heavy
we listen for sanity
we listen for hope

Logic Vs Emotion

I am emotional about my logic

defending logic I get emotional

I would love to be dominant in one

recessive in the other, a mix that

would rise in the proper hemisphere

for the situation

I am a swarm in logical emotion

I am a swarm in emotional logic

I remain in the middle hemispheres

I am logic about my emotional

emotional about my logic