I Want Him To Go To Bed

I Want Him to Go To Bed

I can’t be me when he is awake

I am who he thinks I am and yet

I disappoint him all the time for I

am not who he wants and yet he

tells me I am beautiful and smart

and how cherished I am until I 

open my mouth 

I want him to go to bed so I can

relax and be me to do whatever I do

as me whatever I am that disturbs

him and disturbs me because of him

I hope he really is in bed asleep

I hope I have the energy to be me

I am so tired now from interaction

with him it is always about him

it is always about how he is right

it is about “Quiet, I was talking!”

I try to interject while not interrupting

but the interjection is seen so and then

I want him to go to bed though I will

have to creep around to be me