I jerk awake
just before I hit bottom
my heart feels as though
it will explode out of my chest
I gasp for air
it is always dark
I am not one
prone to falling
in love or for a gag
I protect myself
rarely physically fall
I'm great at correction
Sometimes I go down hard
just laugh and never cry
until recently I seem
to have lost all control
stumble flayed
go down in tears
go down in tears
Excellent and understandable. I understand the 'until recently.' It is crazy-making sometime how one's usual can change.
ReplyDeleteWhat is it about dreams that we awake before we hit bottom. Seriously, I wonder why that is. And what is "usual" anyway? I do understand the message that lies within your poem, Willow.
ReplyDeleteThis is a great poem showing vulnerability now. I feel a change, too, and fear that I have not felt before. Stumble, stumble.
ReplyDeletegreat capture of that nightmare feeling of not quite falling ... asleep or anything else
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